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Merry Christmas to all!
Gabrielle here with the latest updates in my cancer
journey. I am at chemo right now with
Steve getting my second dose of a long-shot drug called pemetrexed (common name
Alimta.) It was designed to treat lung
cancer but has a 10-20% response rate for ovarian cancer patients.
A big problem I have is continual build-up of fluid in my
abdomen, ankles, feet and legs. They
stick a big needle in my side and drain the fluid. I had 5-1/2 liters drained last week and four
liters drained this week and have to wear compression knee socks. Sometime in this coming week they will insert
a plex catheter in my side so that I can open the spigot and take off a liter
of fluid at home every day so it doesn’t grow into such a lot of fluid that it
adds to my abdominal and back pain. We
are working on lessening stomach, back, and foot/ankle/leg pain so I can resume
normal 1 hour walks. Yesterday, I did a
30 minute walk which is a start!
I have had some bouts of explosive diarrhea, which keeps me
pretty close to home many days, but we tested it and are grateful it’s not
C.diff, a nasty colon infection. Thank
you Lord! And it is going away at last.
Our focus right now is treating symptoms and pain in an
effort to have as good a quality of life as I can. Lately I’ve been a bit down, feeling like suffering
is outweighing joy. When you feel like
that, it is hard to keep fighting.
I do have a strong feeling that this is my last year (or
several months) of life on this earth.
Have been thinking about lasts—and firsts. Last Christmas—the beauty of the tree at
night with the lights off, Steve’s Christmas breakfast caramel pecan rolls.
Last anniversary (on the 18th—36 years). Last New Year’s Eve, last birthdays—will I
make it to my 59th on Feb. 18?
Will I make it to April 1 for Daniel’s 29th? Etc.
But then I’m thinking about firsts. First step into heaven, meeting Jesus and
being greeted by all my Christian friends who arrived before me. First days of no pain, no tears or sadness,
and exploring all the glorious beauty there that awaits me. No more medicines or pokes or chemo or scans
and procedures.
We are are not sending Christmas cards this year, as we are
vastly simplifying Christmas because of all we have going on. So let me send our warmest Christmas wishes
for a celebration focused on Jesus, who came to save us, who never leaves us or
forsakes us such that we are never alone—even through cancer, and other
sufferings, such as grief over the death of a loved one—we can remind ourselves
that we are not alone. Our Heavenly Father walks in front of us, the Holy
Spirit is behind us, and Jesus is by our side.
Thank you for your love and prayers. You are dear to us. May your Christmas be filled with Joy. Immanuel—he is with us!
Love,
Gabrielle
Merry Christmas yo you too! 🎄🙏 Bless you for taking the time for an update - you are such a strong individual with such beautiful faith. So many are loving on you and praying for you to enjoy your one hour walks again! Praise Jesus for being by your side during this journey. Love you to the moon and back! 😍✝️💝🙏🌞🌛🙏
ReplyDeleteSending so much love to you and the whole Dudley clan. Thank you for always sharing your heart Gabrielle and for sharing your faith. ❤️ I’m reminded of Jesus’ sweet love for us every time I read your post. Merry Christmas!
ReplyDeleteMay the One who never leaves your side bring comfort and explosive joy in place of pain. You are held and loved. The Alpha (first) and Omega (last) is with you in this bumpy middle, dear Gabrielle!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry it seems to come down to this. May the Lord wrap his love and peace around you and your family like a nice warm blanket taken fresh from the dryer. In regards to the diarrhea coconut macaroons can help - one or two a day. They can make you very regular if you eat too many though.
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Thank you for your honest words! As someone who has gone through breast cancer, you are an inspiration to me! None of know when our last day on earth or first day in heaven will be. Thank you for your bravery and ability to share your journey. Blessings to you and your family!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your journey. You don’t know me but I’m Marti’s niece and I’ve been following your cancer journey and praying for you along the way.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story. It gives me great courage to see a woman fight with such bravery an have such peace. And to watch your husband and family fight right along with you.
I will continue to pray for you. That God will continue to bring you comfort and peace. And that you would enjoy every single one of your “lasts” to the fullest.
-Braeden Crain
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ReplyDeleteYou and your wonderful family are such a positive example of what true family dedication and love for one another should be, thank you!
Sending
blessings and prayers.
Much love, Aunt Ginny
you've been in my prayers - I didn't realize we have birthdays just a month apart. You've got me by a month or so :). Prayers that pain is well-managed, that you all have joy in the season.
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ReplyDeleteThank you for such a beautiful testament of trial, faith, and love.
ReplyDeletePrayerfully Yours,
Craig & Pat Duarte
Merry Christmas to your wonderful family! Know Steve from high school. Found your blog a few months ago and I look forward to every post. I've been totally amazed at your incredible fortitude, Gabrielle. You are exceptionally eloquent and your blog has had me laughing and crying, sometimes at the same time. You are amazing! With love, J.Moose
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