Dearest
Gabrielle,
Well,
today’s the day, the one we have been eagerly awaiting since way back in
January when we started this journey. It
seems so long ago. In a few hours, you
will pack your trusty chemo bag with your special blanket, snacks, hand-held
Scrabble and People magazines and head off for your eighteenth and final treatment.
I want to
take this moment to tell you how proud I have been of you in all of this. From Day One, you have faced this pesky
little problem with tremendous grace, courage and dignity. Your resolve in fighting cancer has never
wavered and your joy has shone like a beacon of hope. You have been such an inspiration, not only
to me but to countless people out there whose lives you have touched. At a time when you have been at your most
vulnerable, you have made it a priority to reach out and minister to others,
helping them with words of wisdom, encouragement, thoughts and prayers.
The thing
that has most struck me is your amazing faith and trust in God. Your inner faith shines through so
beautifully in your words, your blog entries and your calm demeanor throughout
this journey. Anger? At a time when you have every right to be
angry at God, that is not something that I have observed in you. You have an unwavering faith
that God is on His throne and holds you in the palm of His hand and that
wherever this journey takes you, God is there with you. What better place to be?
You have
reminded me of this verse from Isaiah and which I give back to you:
When
you pass through the (deep) waters, I
will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the
fire, you will not be burned; the
flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
Is. 43:2-3
Please
indulge me one more passage from the Bible.
This one is a little paraphrase of mine from Psalm 91. It goes like this:
Psalm. 91. Gabrielle who dwells in the
shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of
the Almighty. Gabrielle
will say of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my
fortress, my God, in whom I trust." Surely he will save Gabrielle from the
fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. He
will cover Gabrielle with his feathers, and under his wings Gabrielle will find refuge; his
faithfulness will be Gabrielle’s shield
and rampart. Gabrielle
will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by
day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that
destroys at midday. A thousand may fall
at Gabrielle’s side, ten thousand at Gabrielle’s right hand, but it will not come near Gabrielle. If Gabrielle makes the Most High her dwelling—even the
LORD, who is Gabrielle’s refuge—then no harm will befall Gabrielle, no disaster
will come near Gabrielle. For he will command his angels
concerning Gabrielle to guard Gabrielle in all Gabrielle’s
ways; they will lift Gabrielle up
in their hands, so that Gabrielle will not strike
Gabrielle’s foot against a stone. Gabrielle will tread upon the lion and the cobra; Gabrielle will trample the great lion and the serpent. "Because he loves Gabrielle,"
says the LORD, "I will rescue Gabrielle; I
will protect Gabrielle, for Gabrielle acknowledges my name. Gabrielle will
call upon me, and I will answer Gabrielle; I will
be with Gabrielle in trouble, I will deliver Gabrielle and honor Gabrielle. With long life will I satisfy Gabrielle and show Gabrielle
my salvation. Psalm 91, RSV*
(* Revised Steve Version)
Good stuff, huh? It is almost as good as my favorite Bible
verse: “Now, Stephen, a man full of God’s grace and power, did great wonders
and miraculous signs” Acts 6:8. Not sure
why I like that one so much. For some
reason, it just speaks to me. But that’s
just a little aside.
I have been blessed to have you as my
wife for over 30 years. My love for you
has never been deeper than it has been right now as we face this struggle
together. You are a champion and I
admire you so much. Thank you for
everything. Now, get into that ring and
kick the stuffing out of cancer one more time!
Looking forward to a big celebration when all this is said and done and
while you’re still hopped up on steroids.
Did someone say Mexican food??
Love,
Steve
p.s.
And, of course, a major thank you to Renee and Daniel who have been so
amazing throughout this as well. You are the best children I could ever hope to
have. I feel so blessed and humbled to
be your dad.
p.p.s.
As for the rest of our “rope team”, a big thanks to you as well. We could not have done it without each and
every one of you.